I have been having a hard time getting back into the groove of things. It is the end of the month and I need to make my budget work-wise, so I have been putting in a little "extra" time working too. So, it has been hard for me to get back in the groove of things.
Well, if you are from here (Spokane), then you know that it is snowing LIKE MAD! Well, I DON'T LIKE SNOW. I panic a bit. I don't like driving, so guess what? I have a really hard time dealing with all of this snow and trying to venture out and getting some deals. So? Guess what else? I haven't been out and I'M GOING CRAZY!!! I WANNA GO SHOPPING!!!! I have +UP Rewards that are expiring at the end of the week, so I HAVE to get out there sometime. I'm hoping that the snow will slow down towards the end of the week and Blakey and I can head out.
Okay, so on another note.....I have been feeling kind of down and sad today. I wasn't sure why. I thought that maybe it was 'cause it was snowing (really) or maybe it has to do with work, OR maybe it has to do with my kids. Yep, I was just thinking about it and my daughter and I got off on a bad foot this morning. I really really don't like that, because what happens in the morning can really really affect someone's day (mine and/or hers).
Well, many of you have met my daughter, Faith or Faithy as we like to call her.
Well, quite honestly (if you ask me), she is such a sweet sweet kiddo. No, really, I have gotten many many compliments on how well-mannered and sweet she is. I know, I know, we all think our kids are the best and I am not trying to brag. I'm just trying to paint you a picture of how I am feeling right now. She is so very gentle, kind, caring, loving, and then some. Really, when she cries it just breaks my heart. She plays by the rules and is VERY VERY literal. You tell her to do something step-by-step and by golly she is going to do what you told her step-by-step, JUST like you told her. This girl follows rules!
Well, anyway, I'm feeling like a bad mommy right now. So, a few weeks ago her first tooth came loose and we pulled that. It was one of her bottom teeth. Okay, when I was pulling that one I noticed that the tooth next to it was loose as well as the two top ones. I told her that she was going to have to work on it and make it more loose. So, I have been on her lately to try to work on it, but she doesn't want to "get hurt." Okay, so this morning it was REALLY REALLY loose, but as she told me she "didn't want it out." I said to just let me look at it and see if I could get it out, "but I don't want it out. It hurts." I told her that I knew that it hurt and was uncomfortable, but that I felt it was time for it to come out. I told her that if we didn't pull it then her other teeth would come in and they would not come in right. They would come in "lookin' funny." Well, she told me that she didn't care. So, she was crying like mad and NOT happy with me at all. Finally, after about 30 minutes of trying to pull this thing. It was ready, I was just too chicken because I didn't want to hurt her and she was crying that I was having a hard time getting that thing to come out (I was shaking). So, by the end she was crying and I was frustrated (not how I like to be with her). Now, she is happy because "the tooth fairy" is coming tonight and she lost another tooth, but I'm still sad and feel guilty about being frustrated this morning and making her cry.
I know they say this "job" of being a parent doesn't get any easier, but realy does it have to be this hard? My heart is REALLY broken right now......
Cheryl